Enough???

Why? I wonder this too often... One should not be too tolerant... It comes back and hurts you way more than it would if you knew when to say enough...

6 years ago, my friend asked me "Sabah, when would you say 'ENOUGH'?"... He had heard this question in a Brad Pitt & Julia Roberts movie. It didnt take me more than a few seconds to say "Never!!! I think if you care enough, you can find a way... I would keep trying..." Life has taught me otherwise...

So you may ask, what is wrong in keeping on trying?? In fact, isn't it great that you never give up... I would reply that "giving up" is very different... I am the biggest believer of the school of thought that teaches that nothing is impossible if you try hard enough... But there is also a very thin line between reality and insanity... And more often than not, I have found myself at the wrong side of that line...

I am 23 years old and I still find it difficult to say "no" to people... I think it is rude... Or maybe, I thought it was... Very few people understand the right time to say "ENOUGH"... Some say it too early while some like me, wont stop trying...

Its a great attitude when it comes to work... I end up getting what I want that way... But people are another story... To sum it up, life works wonders on you... It keeps teaching you the same lesson in different ways till you finally understand and accept it... But by then, its time for another...

For her...

dedicated to the mother i met in the bus 2 years ago... she lost her young daughter and son-in-law in an ST accident a few days after their child was born... the son-in-laws' parents said the child must go to an orphanage... but she didnt let them... she said, "she would be Abhishek's mother from that day and that while she lived, he would have the best home she could give him"... i was filled with respect and admiration for her that very instant... i prayed to God for the child's smiling face, her long and happy life and told her "he is a very lucky boy; he has you"... her eyes was moist...

holding him close
she caressed his soul,
she was an epitome of virtue
of love and strength, so bold...
he kept far enough
to know she was around
he wanted to be stubborn
but didnt risk the anger bound...
the bond exists, we see
it stretches out the pain
the feeling overcomes her fears
no care for the world of disdain...
a salute goes out for the bravery
a heartfelt wish for the love
the suppressed hurt emerges
and the next its put to shove...
she pats his being to sleep
her breath waiting for his next
all battles and struggles surmount
all fears and woes annexed...

there... again...

she moved with the wind
she swayed with the current...
imprisoned, claustrophobic
why? again? there?
freedom... just for once...
she didn't... she tried...
she called out... he heard...
he didn't listen...
did she matter?
the world went on...
she called once more...
listen listen listen
white noise... silence...
she tried again...
this time the voice would not come...
buried.. deep within...
it now lies... hoping it would
maybe some day...
the day did not come...
nor did she...
nor did he...